Three Months

It’ll be exactly three months tonight. Three months since that call came in and changed my life and myself forever. A lot has happened in those three months. A lot more has changed than just me; a lot has moved. But all of it has moved in one direction. The right one. Deeper. Further. Higher. […]

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On a Happier Note

For all the pain of the past few weeks, there has been a lot of joy thrown in there as well. My precious dance partner has been a huge source of it. Our lessons with Coach J have been fantastic; we’re schooling movements I’ve only ever dreamed of, planning to ride Novice 4 and 5 […]

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Unexpected Lessons

There’s a lot about grief that I didn’t expect. The five stages you read about make it seem so simple, predictable. Like you’ll just plod on from one to the next, finally popping out of Acceptance with a whole and happy heart, and carry on with your life as if nothing ever happened. It’s not […]

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Silence in the Storm

I can’t seem to stop grieving. Every time someone asks, “Did you hear about that girl…?” I feel more hurt and more angry when I have to respond, “I was on the scene. She was my friend.” But God will work all things for the good of those that love Him. Already He is working […]

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On Rainbows

It’s still too soon. It might always be. The pain subsides slowly, but the words still don’t come. So this is not the whole story, or the whole piece of the story that’s revealed to me, anyway. It’s just the bare bones of what happened so that in the blog as in life I can […]

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